2017/2018

"Itadakimasu" 11/19 - Would be part of the 'Death Series'

Whenever I was doing bad mentally when I was younger, I drew vague and "beautiful" death scenes. Decapitation and flowers sprouting from the head and neck was a very common theme. For me, this piece reminds me of a lot of memories and leaves me feeling very peaceful.

2017-Uni, First Year, 1 Point Perspective. My first digital environment drawing. I remember having to hide my crying during this class as I was so upset by my inability to draw to the same standard as others my age on the course. To say I felt behind was an understatement. 

2018- Gorrilaz, 2D Fan Art. Again, attempting that oil paint style. I was really happy with this piece and planned to do the others, but never got motivated

2018-Uni, First Year, Cursed King Project

2018- Uni, First Year, 2 Point Perspective. There was this girl who I thought was just better then me in every way, physically, socially and artistically. This piece always reminds me of her. My views on her changed a lot as I realised, she wasn't actually all that nice or better then anyone even if she acted like it. Now, years later, I feel nothing but glad for that short artists interaction, because I learnt that just as much as putting myself down is bad, internally putting others up and ranking myself against them, is also just as great a mistake.

2018-Uni, First Year, Diorama, wood texture. I was so proud of this till I used it and realised it was too intense haha.

2017-Uni, First Year, Material Studies. Again, a project that really made me realise that I hadn't worked as hard as others in my life towards art. I remember seeing what people came up with and feeling terrible that I wasn't as creative.

Late 2018- Futaba Sakura, Persona 5, Fan Art in reference and style of Ilya Kuvshinov- Megane. My first twitter art post and another shot at oil paint style. You can see me trying to do a background then getting overwhelmed.

2018-Uni, First Year, Cursed King Project. I can not tell you how relieved this sheet made me. I vividly remember one of the colder art teachers praising it and just internally relaxing as it reassured me thinking it was good because the rest of the time in first year was just constant reminders that I wasn't as good as I wanted.

2018- Random Unfinished Idea. Idea being: the background, mid and foreground were separate scenes happening but lined up to make a scene in of itself. Quite like the idea actually.

2018-Uni, First Year, Space Ship Silhouette Project. Looking back this is actually pretty cool? Basically the space ship fires a laser and the whole thing is a sword for a space giant/gundam. Not very realistic, but fucking cool sounding!

2018-Uni, First Year, Diorama, tree silhouettes. I fucking love these. These are dope.

Early 2017- College Media 2nd Year Magazine Project. I was stoked about this. Honestly is still holds up today and could be a legit magazine brand :') (I know it says 2016, but it was literally late December)

2018-Uni, First Year, Cursed King Project. This piece was VERY important. I had never rendered a background before and I had never achieved it in the painterly style I always wanted to do to a standard I could like. This piece was pivotal and made me focus on not being "one trick".

2018- Jinx, LoL Unfinished Fan Art. Surprise, another shot at oil paint style. I dropped this not because I didn't like the overall piece, but I just hated her facial anatomy. My head idea wasn't coming out time and time again.

Early 2018- Ghost in the Shell, Unfinished Geisha Fan Art. With a new found sense of confidence from university motivation I gave my shot at painting something more oil paint style which I've always wanted to have as part of my style.

2018- Uni, First Year, "self insert" Character Project. Basically make yourself into a fantasy village character to make into 3D later. WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF?

2018-Uni, First Year, Diorama Concepts and textures. The drawing is actually really cute! I'm really surprised I wasn't happier about it at the time.

2018-Uni, First Year, Character Silhouettes. I hate working from silhouette to render, it doesn't usually work well for me however I still do it occasionally!

2017- College Media 2nd Year Magazine Project. The inside article I had to write. Pretty decent for a 16 year old!

2018-Uni, First Year, Diorama flower drawings. I love botany and flora book aesthetics and this was my first taste at rendering plants and flowers.

Early 2018- Caricature persona attempt. I worked overtime at a restaurant during the summer to upgrade my graphics tablet for university to a screen Huion GT 220 V2 and with that, found it a lot easier to draw and improver faster.

Early 2018- Painting: Apterus Illustrations style attempt, as you can see, this got dropped very quickly.

2018-Uni, First Year, Cursed King Project. I remember wanting to do so much more with this portrait and getting to this point, stopping for a moment and quitting then and there. I went back to my flat and never touched it again. I think this is one of the smaller occasions you can see my OCD getting worse.

2018, Uni, First Year, Cursed King Project. Yikes, if anything is telling of my mental state at this point in first year, this shows a thousand words. My motivation and abilities was at an all time low here. My teacher(s) for this were really unhelpful and cold towards me telling me to "just keep going" ect. when asking for specific painting help that I clearly needed. This hurt quite a bit because they were exceptionally warm, friendly and spent ages with others who were a lot more skilled. Looking back, it was small things like this that make me feel quite bitter towards the course and overshadowed some awesome teachers who always said hi and treated everyone equally in both time and attitude. I hope they are well <3

2018-Uni, First Year, Diorama, wood plank texture.

2017-College Textiles Final Project modelled by my old mate Zara <3. My second/last year at college I didn't do fine art, I did textiles, in fact I hated fine art with a fiery passion. Basically I found a way to make cosplay armour based off Artorias of the Abyss from Dark Souls 2 ;)

2018- "Primitive" I was stuck as to what to draw and thought to layer primitive shapes and then work in symmetry just to see what would come out. I think the upper eye lid was the beginning of my want to work more realistic as it was deeply rewarding to have the shading come out how it did there.